Musings :: Moments :: Memories
When I was really struggling with Austin and wondering why it seemed so much harder than last time (apart from the obvious things like me being older, Austin not being Evelina etc.), I realised that what was making it hard was not being in a routine. I was feeding him every two hours, on demand… Continue reading Living on Purpose
Every January for the past three years, I have chosen a word to focus on. Last year was Nurture - I did a lot of that but I also didn't really focus on it like I'd hoped. The joy of motherhood sometimes means that life seems to be passing by, like you're on a train… Continue reading Balance
Today is an exciting day in our household. We welcomed two baby guinea pigs called Pumpkin (a buff piggy) and Clover (a cream piggy). They are in a huge six-foot hutch in the newly painted garage and I hope they are comfortable and not too scared / traumatised by the whole experience. The pet shop… Continue reading Pumpkin and Clover
On Saturday, I had managed to get a ticket to see Margaret Atwood at the Royal Shakespeare Company theatre. She was talking about her new book Hag-Seed which is a retelling of Shakespeare's play The Tempest. I teach this play to our Year 7s but because of the level of the students, we do not delve… Continue reading Meeting Margaret Atwood
When I was writing my previous post, I had not been feeling particularly down or unhappy. I was just exploring some of the difficult feelings that I had been experiencing from time to time since having Austin. I had a lovely response to it and for a moment, I felt strangely exposed. I didn't mean… Continue reading Floating
Ever since having Austin, I have the disconcerting feeling that I have lost my nerve. From inconsequential things like not being able to go down a high slide at Bewilderwood to more significant anxieties around returning to work, dealing with a lot of noise and sometimes even being in crowded places. Generally, I am much… Continue reading Losing my Nerve
I am taking advantage of a rare bit of time without the children to do some of the many things that I have had to put on the back burner since having Austin. I am writing so infrequently here, I wanted to take a look at the blog and decide how I wanted to proceed:… Continue reading Far From Simple
Tomorrow, I will be forty years old. I thought for sure by the time I got to this ripe old age, I would feel more grown up but maybe that's the big secret that no child knows: there is no one moment when you feel like you have it all together. I wrote my list… Continue reading Almost Forty
A medium I have been enjoying a lot lately is the podcast. I have subscribed to quite a few of late and I find it is a really informative and entertaining format which suits my mobile lifestyle (i.e. I am always on the move round the house or in the car or walking around the… Continue reading For the Love of Pod
For someone who is usually only too happy to share her thoughts and feelings, it always catches me off-guard when I realise I have been bottling things up. I can always tell when I am feeling stressed because it shows in my face. Not in my expression. In my actual face. For a few days… Continue reading Currently
Notes From My Day 